RYAN IS MY YOUNGEST AND SECOND BIOLOGICAL CHILD, BORN ON OCT 16, 1988 (8 LBS 10 OZ). HE HAS AN OLDER SISTER STACY. STACY WAS BORN IN FEB OF 1979. SHE WAS ALWAYS MY PRIDE AND JOY. I WAS TOLD AFTER HAVING SOME HEALTH ISSUES THAT I WOULD PROBALY NEVER BE ABLE TO HAVE ANOTHER CHILD. I FELT OK WITH THAT, AND WAS HAPPY WITH MY LITTLE GIRL. WELL, STACY WASN'T QUITE CONTENT WITH NOT HAVING A SIBLING AND ALWAYS TOLD ME THAT SHE WANTED A LITTLE BROTHER OR SISTER. I TOLD HER THAT I DIDN'T THINK THAT WAS POSSSIBLE. WELL THAT ANSWER WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH FOR HER. LITTLE DID I KNOW SHE WAS PRAYING EVERY NIGHT FOR MOM TO HAVE A BABY. WELL, 10 YEARS LATER HER PRAYERS WERE ANSWERED, AND I FOUND OUT THAT I WAS PREGNANT.I REALLY DIDN'T KNOW HOW I WAS GOING TO LOVE ANOTHER BABY AS MUCH AS I LOVED HER. UNTIL THE DAY THAT RYAN WAS BORN, IT WAS INSTANT LOVE AT FIRST SITE. HE NOW WAS OUR LITTLE BUNDLE OF JOY. RYAN ALWAYS MADE THE HOLIDAYS SPECIAL, HE WAS THE CHILD THAT WOULD SHOW SO MUCH EXCITMENT, THAT YOU JUST HAD TO ENJOY THE DAY. SOMEDAYS WITH HIM COULD REALLY BE TOUGH, HE HAD A MIND OF HIS OWN, AND NO ONE WAS GOING TO CHANGE IT. I CALLED HIM MY LITTLE CEMENT HEAD. AS TIME WENT ON HE GREW TO BE SUCH A LOVING, CARING AND SWEET SON, BROTHER, AND UNCLE. RYAN LOVED TO HAVE FUN, AND LIVED EACH DAY AS IF IT WAS HIS LAST. LOVED THE MOVIES, VIDEO GAMES, SKATEBOARDING, SNOWBOARDING, AND ESPECIALLY HIS FAMILY AND FRIENDS.
RYAN LEFT TO GO TO WORK ON SATURDAY AFTERNOON, GAVE ME A KISS, SAID I LOVE YOU MOM, AND THAT WAS THE LAST TIME I SEEN HIM UNTIL HIS WAKE. HE WORKED UNTIL 10:00 THAT NIGHT, HIS LITTLE SISTER AND HER BOYFRIEND PICKED HIM UP AND THEY WENT TO A SWEET SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY PARTY. THE PARTY WAS AT A CLUB WITH PARENTAL SUPERVISION, AND IT ENDED AT 12:00. RYAN GAVE HIS SISTER A KISS GOOD-BYE AND DECIDED TO GET A RIDE HOME WITH A "SO CALLED FRIEND", INSTEAD OF GOING HOME WITH HER. TWO OTHER KIDS ALSO TOOK THAT RIDE , ONE WAS LUCKY ENOUGH TO GET DROPPED OFF BEFORE THE UNKNOWN TOOK PLACE. THE DRIVER DECIDED TO SPEED, APPROX 72 OR BETTER MILES PER HR. IN A 25 MILE ZONE. LESS THAN ONE MILE FROM HOME HE LOST CONTROL AND HIT A POLE. MY SON AND ANOTHER FRIEND LOST THERE LIVES AND THE DRIVER WAS FINE. THAT WAS THE BEGINNING OF MINE AND MY FAMILIES HEARTS BEING TORN APART. RYAN TOOK A PART OF ME WITH HIM THAT DAY THAT WILL NEVER HEAL. I MISS HIM EVERYDAY AND WISH THAT HE WAS WITH US TO SHARE HIS LIFE WITH US.
I LEARNED ALOT FROM HIS FRIENDS AFTER HE PASSED. HE WAS ALOT LIKE ME, AND I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT. HIS FRIENDS TOLD ME HE WAS SO EASY GOING. THE ONE, THAT IF ANYONE WAS SAD OR HAVING A TOUGH DAY, THEY WOULD GO TO HIM AND HE WOULD BRIGHTEN THERE DAY. HE HAD SO MANY GOOD FRIENDS THAT I HADN'T MET UNTIL HE WAS TAKEN FROM US. THE KIDS GOT ME THROUGH, AS MUCH AS THEY COULD. I WILL NEVER FORGET ANY OF THEM. ADULTS NEED TO PAY MORE ATTENTION, THEY ARE ALOT WISER THAN THEY RECEIVE CREDIT FOR. RYAN ALSO WORKED AT STOP AND SHOP AND WAS SO LOVED BY HIS CO-WORKERS AND CUSTOMERS. THEY ALL HAD SUCH NICE THINGS TO SAY ABOUT HIM. THE DAY THAT HE PASSED, THE PEOPLE FROM STOP AND SHOP WERE AT OUR HOME THAT MORNING WITH LOVE IN THERE HEARTS AND FOOD IN THERE ARMS. THEY CONTINUED AND GAVE EVERYTHING THAT THEY COULD FOR THE NEXT COUPLE OF DAYS TO FOLLOW. RYAN MISSED THE BIRTH OF HIS NEW LITTLE NEICE BY APRROX. FOUR WEEKS. AGAIN, HISTORY REPEATS, HIS SISTER COULDN'T WAIT FOR HIM TO BE BORN, AND HE WAS JUST WAITING FOR HIS LITTLE NEICE TO COME INTO THE WORLD. I AM SURE THAT HE WATCHES OVER HER, AND OUR FAMILY DAILY. HE HAD TOO MUCH LOVE IN HIS HEART NOT TO WATCH OVER US.
I LOVE YOU RYAN (MY SWEET SON), I WILL ALWAYS AND FOREVER HOLD YOU IN MY HEART. NOT A DAY WILL PASS THAT I WILL NOT THINK OF YOU. REMEMBER, TO SAVE ME A PLACE RIGHT NEXT TO YOU WHEN IT IS MY TIME TO FINISH MY JOURNEY, AS YOU DID.
MOM AND KORB 
